this is the ultimate gift
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It’s being alive. It’s being alive! These words as I type them feel like a meek, almost insulting signifier towards the real-deal embodied emotional lifelong experience of being alive! This life is the ultimate gift!
Who gave the ultimate gift? Parents? Yes of course and I cannot thank you enough, I love you forever, all of the earnest platitudes, but let’s be real, there’s something going on here. Some infinite eternal something wanted to experience YOU, you reading this. All of it, even that worst most terrible traumatic thing that happened to you, that too, maybe especially that too.
Or not, what do I know.
I know that as I look around and see plants and machines and a soft blue sky with clouds like teddy bear fluff I can’t help but think my god, what artistry! It’s everywhere all of the time! This white-tailed deer agrees with me! That’s why it posed for the photo just now! It wants to be a part of this!
I know that it’s a white-tailed deer because a computer told me and oh my god the computers! The computers gave me friends and service opportunities and a real-deal job and so much more all because I’ve dared to share more and more and more of my authentic self with the computers over the past five years bit by bit by bit. And I always felt into what felt right for me at the time, and I felt everything, the nerves of expressing myself on digital stages and the anger over petty digital dramas and the rapture of instantly incredible first digital conversations. I felt all of it!
And it’s the feelings that are so much of the gift because would you rather be a rich and powerful but perpetually deeply bitter and frustrated and miserable you or would you rather be the you you are? Preslicely! But even those wonky feelings are a great part of the gift because the contrast helps us better understand how good it feels to feel good. You feel me? Maybe I said it better on video.
Go get some sun! Go kiss a person of your preferred kissing! Go do or be however you feel like you’re meant to experience the ultimate gift, the unique gift that was bestowed to you and that is you. Even when it feels like a monumental task, cherish what is happening here and now, and know that you are not alone, know that others have experienced this part of the ultimate gift, whatever it is.
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